Untouchable Ignorance (Print)

              This piece serves as visual dedication to regression within my healing journey. More honestly, and shamefully, this is my starting point. This is who I am/was when I need to survive (or think I do). Hateful, arrogant, angry, and cruelly disconnected. Keeping myself in the only version of “safe” I had ever known. I had to choose to be brave enough to let go of my need to be strong, safe, and/or right. Only then did I start to notice what’s underneath it all. I’m scared; I’m hurt.
                I’m terrified actually. I am small and unsure sometimes, and I make myself as big as I can, lashing out at anyone who dares to get too close. I close myself off and I am untrue.
                It is all too easy to avoid what is inside. Deny it, shove it in a corner, never to be spat on again; Look at it with rage and disgust. However, I have found it a lonely life when you choose to abandon yourself to this untouchable ignorance, disguised as safety.
 
                The path to Self: Be curious! Not a control freak! Slow down, search for clarity and understanding within yourself, practice self-compassion even when it feels impossible! Let that curiosity show in your connection with those around you. (Print)